i just cant do it.

The Lady

me myself and i

Nur Farhanah
21
Preschool Teacher

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trying to forget you

but it's near to impossible.

Friday, June 26, 2009

11:25 PM

today, i went to work from 9am to 130pm.
didnt know where to head to, and i didnt wanna go home just yet.
so i msged awad and asked him out.

i was at hougang mall and i decided to bring him to that sengkang east way place.
then i went to search the ENTIRE hougang mall for a kite.
i went to stupid places like ntuc, popular, mini toons, value dollar or something and etc.

then at the top most level, there's this shop called TOYRIFIC.
i found it there.
TERRIFIC!

so i went to his house and picked him up.
and we took the bus to the shopping centre. compass point? think so la.
ate ~~mac~~ he changed his mind so we had kfc and went timezone and shopped around.

i love that first game we played, i dont know the name of it.
the one that has two goal 'posts' and lots of small holes that produce air.
2 players with this handle thing and a circle 'coin'.

there's this striking resemblance that i see in this picture.

yes!
at around 4, we walked over to this empty plot of land.
it was super huge la.
i think you can have 10 teams of soccer playing together! maybe even 20!

warming up. okay! lepaskan!
:)

sadly, he didnt manage to get the kite up and flying.

but he didnt give up trying.

and i helped him and we did it! :D

soon after, we were too tired to run.

so we packed up and left.

we're gonna meet up again, someday soon.

and he made me laugh like mad when he told me the story of the man and prata.

i couldnt stop laughing seh.

"sonshofshashbitchsh." ahahahahaha!!! thanks awad.

&& i dont usually use pink as my font colour.

its because this is his favourite colour.

and below are some random pictures i took.

focus on foreground. my castle.

guan cheng's hut. hahaha!

and he was so excited.

i am still hoping for this day to arrive.
2 smiles, 2 hearts, beating as one.
semoga kau dan aku, akhirnya bersama.

Tuesday, June 23, 2009

11:37 PM

hi there!
how are you?
im fine, thank you. :)

guess what?!
i've got a new student in class!
and its a..... GIRL!!!

yes, yes, YES!
a DAMN cute malay girl.
huge eyes with curly fries hair on top!

awww.
i've always wanted that.
makes me melt.

okay so anyway, the day before, i chatted with the principal.
she asked again, when i'll be able to work full time.
i feel so pressurised la! everyone's been asking!

actually i talk to her to ask if i can get a pay raise first.
cause INSYAALLAH i will be finishing school by AUGUST 2009.
then i'll be a diploma holder! yea. dip dip banana dip.

but she said she needs to see the cert. and i said i dont know when i will get it la.
maybe next year. exam results can? she said no.
and i asked if i were to work full time how much will my salary be.

she said $1200.
negotiable?
$50 more. $1250.

i wanted to *yakdish her la. LOL.
and i asked if i had the cert, how much would it be.
she said "one thousand three hundred and fifty".

okay, thats like $100 more?
god. i spent FOUR bloody long years la in poly.
four and a half, to be exact.

so now im torn between whether i should get a degree, or just stay in this childcare line.
over here, i get to upgrade myself and pay likewise.
but i still dont earn as much as i will when i get a degree la.

so how!
four years of full time study?
or three years of part time study.

the difference in salary is like a thousand dollars plus plus plus.
and the difference in years of study is only one.
but will i be able to cope?

RARRR!
how?
i just wish there is someone i can talk to bout such matters.

i told the principal i will think about it.
because when i first accepted the job, i told her its only gonna be part time.
but damn! i fell in love with it.

okay, enough of this.
chapter 2.
LRT.

have you ever been on an lrt?
yeap, the one that doesnt have a driver.
like the skytrain at the airport. (only that it smells better.)

i was on the way to QX's 21st birthday party @ bukit panjang CC.
met shawn @ choa chu kang station.
leonard and alex were late, so we left on our own.

me: looks like there's lots of people. im afraid i cant breathe later.
shawn: i also dont like to take lrt. everytime spoil.
me: *starting to feel anxious, the butterflies start to flutter* seriously?
shawn: ya! you never hear before meh!
me: no~ when?!
shawn: everytime!

so lrt arrives...

cck -> south view -> keat hong -> teck whye -> phoenix.

we just arrived at the phoenix station.
and suddenly, the train lights went off and so did the air con.
the train did not open its doors.

i looked at shawn.

me: what happened?
shawn: dont know. i think it stalled.
me: really?
shawn: ya, see just now i say ady! everytime spoil.
me: mulot masin siol!!!
shawn: should we sit?
me: okay.

everyone else on the train carries on chatting or were on the phone.
they seemed calm.
like as if the train was still operating.

me: how long are we gonna stay here?
shawn: i dont know.
me: isnt anyone gonna call someone to save us? what if no one knows we are here?!
shawn: there's people outside at the station.
me: *looks around and saw an emergency phone* shawn! quick call!
shawn: *lifts the phone and put it to his ear* okay bye!
me: what?! just okay bye?!
shawn: she knows we are stuck. she said its due to power failure.
me: did you know that the other time the singapore flyer had a power failure, they stayed in there for 6 hours!
shawn: you were on it?!
me: no! omg. im going to faint. stop talking to me.

i was staring at the door and i noticed it had a gap.
yes! we are alive!
an indian man used the emergency door unlock thing.

yes la.
thank you, man.
you saved my life.

and we took a cab down to the CC.
where we met leonard at the bus stop.
and went up to level 4; multi purpose hall.

whoaa. cool seh. have emcee and dj.
and there was a magician.
and some roller-bladers.

oh! and the roller-bladers like jump across people la.
it was freaking scary.
i've got some pictures here.

6 people here.

and 8 here.

and this is shawn.

these hats we are wearing cost like 80 cents each.

and the birthday boy spent like $500 on balloons itself.

he is CCCRRRAAAZZZYYY!

but it was fun.

okay, getting late now.

gotta go sleep.

good night everyone!

Friday, June 19, 2009

11:47 AM

havent been updating.
well, life isnt the same now.
it never will be again. :(

all by myself.
lost and confused.
in this beautiful world where i can only see black and white.

nothing much has happened since.
oh, except that i had a 21st birthday party.
a boring, useless and sad party actually.

but people, thanks for turning up anyways.
much appreciated.
really.

it wouldnt have been possible without any of you.
maybe just one of you.
thanks for the gifts though.

the past 3 weeks i passed has been entirely the same every week.
work, and more work.
tuition, and more tuition.

below are some pictures of stuff i do at work.
things that i love to do.
but now, it seems like a chore.

nowadays, i spend lunch sighing as i force food down my throat.
and after which, i will lay my head on the table with a crayon in my hand.
and colour my time away.

a page of what i read.