trying to forget you
but it's near to impossible.
Thursday, April 30, 2009
1:51 PM
i dont know why, but i feel exceptionally tired today.
one kind of a worn out feeling.
i couldnt sleep well last night.
thanks to the damned mosquitoes.
and then i dreamt i had lumps in my breast.
and some stupid doctor told me, "how could you not suspect its cancer?!"
haha. what the hell.
then i woke up feeling sooooo damn drained.
must be the emotions i felt when i was diagnosed with the cancer.
seriously, i didnt even smile when i saw light.
on weird days, i do.
but today, i didnt.
and soon after, it rained heavily.
i climbed down the ladder to shut my windows.
and after that i watched primetime morning and the ellen degeneres show.
at 930, i went to mandi.
then i filled my waterbottle and poured a bowl of honeystars and milk for breakfast.
i went on to switch on the fan and tv.
i settled comfortably on the sofa and looked at my bowl to begin my first scoop.
TO MY HORROR, the damned bowl of brekky was filled with like 200 ants!!!
k la, kidding la. around 20?
k la, 10 plus plus la.
then i took a piece of tissue to like remove the ants.
but god, how silly can i get? (cause the tissue soaked up the milk instead.)
then i said, fuck it la, im late ady.
so continued with the ellen show. is it? wait. i dont remember what i watch anymore.
nevermind, so i only ate the honeystars that didnt have ants on.
like i stir2 to get it off and i also drank the milk.
then ants were like floating around my stars and a pang of guilt shot me.
how could i have drowned these ants and not even notice?!
poor thing.
im so sorry, but you guys deserved it for getting on my brekky.
dont do it again!
please.
then i threw the rest away and left home.
i reached the bus stop at 1023.
and i got to class at 1117.
checked my mails, blog and all.
received my new EZ link card.
didnt even know i'd be getting one.
my, i really feel sooooo exasperated.
i hope im not falling sick.
have you ever killed an ant and when you smell your finger,
it has a kind of an insecticide smell?
is that why i feel so drowsy?
that honeystars with dead ants and tissue in my milk breakfast.
whatever.
im off.